“It's been a rollercoaster. I think all of this started with my own paranoia...or maybe my fear of being on my own. I think, as the years have gone by, my mind has changed the way I interact with people, most especially those that I care about.
For me, it came in the form of wanting someone there to constantly care for me, so I would never feel lonely or be alone and always, I'd forget to give all of this back.
Soon enough I realised how selfish I was, how narcissistic I had become.
Sometimes I wonder if I should blame myself or blame "love" because, love makes you blind doesn’t it?..."
"...after a while, I decided to step away from this utterly annoying fear of mine and decided to focus on something else, everything else I guess?